First Day

So today was my first official day of unemployment. I didn't think it would feel so strange. I find myself thinking I have work tomorrow or on Monday, when in fact I do not. My last day at work was so difficult thinking about all my coworkers, who are more like best friends, and how I'm going to miss them all so much. I managed to hold myself together until I got home, then I had a long cry.

Working had become such a part of my life that I'm not totally sure that I'm going to know how to go on without it. I know once baby gets here it will be a different story, but for the next 2 months I have to learn to live without an away from home job.

Not working, and letting my mind kind of realize how incredibly different life is going to be now, knocked me back. Just coming to the realization that I'm not just on a short vacation and that I'm now going to have new duties is something I hadn't fully realized. Similar to how I didn't realize that being pregnant was going to be as difficult as it is.

Everything about being unemployed now gives me such mixed feelings. In many ways I am so happy that I now have more freedom and time to take care of all the household chores and other things that usually fall to the back burner. At other times stress seems to be the overriding emotion because now we have to completely change our lifestyle and adjust to one income. Occasionally sadness fills in when I think of all my friends and clients that I left behind at my job. Fortunately, and thankfully, my husband has been so supportive of me and has been helping to keep things on track while we both adjust to this major change.

I can't fathom how much more difficult this would be if my wonderful husband wasn't on board with it. I know he has stresses related to the changes too, but he is one amazing man and surprises me at every turn. Despite all the emotions and changes life goes on and we continue to survive and thrive. We live a truly blessed life.